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Fighter’s Drawing Tablet

Here's my art. I mostly draw personal comics and illustrations, as well as the parts here. Obligatory trigger warning: SA, SH, SI, violence, injury, betrayal.

Internal Systems:
Mindscape and Soulcage

Thumbnail of parts - Meet the internal folks. They've been around since childhood, helping with survival behind the scenes. First acknowledged some of them through internal family system or IFS therapy back in 2021. But soon stopped because every time I did it, my symptoms worsened. I took the helpful bits like having compassion towards parts and that has helped build trust and communication. This thumbnail is an overview of the parts identified so far, inspired by the first couple doodles of doing IFS (last 2 images). The list can change as we go through our healing journey.

Betrayed Again

Did any of those moments ever mean anything?

Content Warning: SH

Just a Toy See?

Just a Toy

All you wanted of me was to become one.

Butting Heads with a Leo

Drawn based on a dream.

One Night at the Club

I don't want to remember.

Self Painting

Missed Me

The guards at the facility had nice aim.

Just a Scratch

Oh now you've done it.

Graduation Graduation

Sketches

It was self-defence.

Week Six

What I drew on the sixth week of the semester. (I don't remember which semester.)

Content Warning: SH

Week Four

What I drew on the fourth week of the semester. (I don't remember which semester.)

Week one no. 1 Week one no. 2

Week One

What I drew on the first week of the semester. (I don't remember which semester.)

Draw 25

I'll take the L.

Mood

Please excuse the thirst posts in the Healer's page.

Proposal Defence

i went into my proposal defence feeling fearful and insecure as hell. prior to it, my inner critic was ruthless: "your examination committee will reject this abomination you call a proposal!!!" but i marched on anyway. knowing that some folks from the same department had analyzed persona 4, god of war, and even bobby bola(?!?!) for their theses gave me hope that i could analyze omori. once i finished my defence, i couldn't get over how bewildering it was to see the shift in vibe after my presentation. from viewing my examination committee as arbiters of life-or-death, i saw them as folks who were simply curious about my niche interest.

Enough Crying

A moment of weakness.

Wallflower

Invite me to a party and you'll catch me in the walls.

Cringe Attack

I've been having cringe attacks over this embarrassing moment and needed to get it out of my system.

Vent Art

I'm sure she wouldn't mind.

Med School

Time to lock in.

Internship

An unexpected turn has befallen upon me, and now I must act as if im not a chronic shut-in for the next 3 months.

Doodle: Week One

Online college was rough...

Online

First college semester went great. I drew a lot of art.

Jumpscare

When the lecturer calls your name.

Give Me a Break

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