Oh, Life, What is Happening?
I shall ramble here. I need to empty my mind. Once again, life feels boring. Empty. At the same time, it feels fulfilling. A lot happened. A lot. It’s overwhelming and underwhelming. This won’t make sense, will it?
I haven’t written much. I’m scared to write because then I will have to face reality. Escapism embraces me. I’ve played so many games. Install. Uninstall. Install. Uninstall. Fall asleep, wake up, install. Uninstall. I cannot bear to hear my thoughts about my past and my future.
My cat was sent away to another family member because I failed as an owner. My living room was flooded and that triggered our system. Everything happened in a week.
Food is… so… difficult. Yet I was told it’s enough. I’m enough… we’re enough.
Ah, I also spent 1.5 million (IDR) in a gacha game to cope. I’m aware it’s not the healthiest means of coping but man was it an interesting experience as I’m known for being free-to-play. Sadly lost the 50/50, but I eventually got the character I wanted so yippee! Still, I learned that it ain’t worth it.
In other news… good ones I suppose… my mum knows what happened to me and her reaction wasn’t at all like how I thought. I anticipated her reaction to be in the worst case scenario. Think of her freaking out then acting impulsively. But nope! That’s not at all what happened. She was shocked, sure, but she was calm and understanding. I’m so, so glad that was the case. Now she can protect me. I feel a lot safer.
Besides all that, we’re still working on manuscripts as usual. This time the manager makes sure we’re not late like last time... February’s batch was rough…
Finally, as of 29th May, I’ve been sticking to playing a handful of games, namely NIKKE, Honkai Star Rail, and Flight Rising. I’m slowly catching up to all the story in NIKKE after playing it on and off since 2023. Likewise in Star Rail. Slowly chipping away at Amphoreus. My god is the story truly something. Meanwhile in Flight Rising I’m just cleaning up my lair, trying to write lore and creating art of my dragons. I’m having a blast overall.
I initially wrote the first half of this blog (the negative stuff) in May 25, but I decided to continue it and add the latest update. I may have switched while writing the second half of this blog. Apologies if it’s all over the place haha. Anyway, I think that’ll be all for now. See y’all in the next one. Til’ then, take care!